Wrestling with God
It was gym class. I was twelve years old. And somehow I found myself in a wrestling match with someone twice my size. (This is a true story!) As my opponent lifted me in the air about chest high, I clinched her with all my might (read: held on for dear life) and offered an emphatic and unequivocal surrender. Fortunately, the gym teacher intervened just before I was body slammed into the mat. (This same friend broke my collar bone about a year later, but I’ll save that story for another time.)
I quickly decided that wrestling was not my thing. However, I recently found myself in a wrestling match with God. God was calling me to do something that made no sense to me and would cause emotional pain to both myself and the other person. Surely there had to be another way. What good could possibly come from the scenario? I cried, I begged, I lost sleep, yet God’s intentions were clear. And so, I surrendered to Him. I probably won’t know the outcome for a long time, but I trust that God has a plan and that His plans are good.
Was it easy? No! Was it the right thing to do? I believe with all my heart that I was obedient to Him and I trust that He will honor and bless my obedience. In the meantime, I trust Him to make something beautiful out of what I’m unable to see. I pray that you too, will seek God’s will in all things and answer His calling even when you may not understand. Trust that He sees the big picture and know that He will honor your faithfulness.
And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. Romans 8:28
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